Heartache U.S.A

So I've got to be honest ... my heart is broken. I know I haven't been blogging lately, but this is the place where I come to get my feelings out. I feel so hurt. So betrayed. So stupid. So rejected. My boyfriend of the last year and half broke up with me on last Thursday. He said that the reason was because he was tried of feeling like he was on trial when he was with me. There's a whole back story to this but it doesn't matter anymore.

So the next night ((one day after we broke up)) while he was out bowling with a few of our co-workers he flirted with a chick who also works with us. They exchanged numbers and so their story goes from there. So when I got wind of it I was heated. I mean I know that we are not together,but I just feel like it was disrespectful to date someone else that we both work with. In fact, she works closely with me. I asked him about it. He said that she meant nothing. She was trying to get at him, and that he wasn't interested. Ok ... I'm give him the benefit of the doubt and trust him at his word.

Last night, ((Thursday)) I was still down and miserable about our break-up so I decided to take my sister to the movies. How about then I get there I just so happen to park directly in front of ::Christain's:: car. I can't believe this dude is out on a date a week after our relationship. I have to see who he is with so I go to every single theater <- out of hand, I know, but I had to see. So finally I find him ... in the movie I had payed to see anyway. And who is he with?? None other than the girl he said with nothing. The girl he didn't care anything about. Looking good as hell. Hair cut. Cologne popping. Clothes fresh. I was crushed. I couldn't believe it. I didn't make a scene. I just sent him a text that said: I knew you were a liar. Then me n my sis went to another show. About a minute or so later ... he calls me asking what am I talking about. I tell him that I saw him with the chick he said was nothing and that he is a liar. He left that movie he was in to come and sit in the movie that I was in to try and explain that its nothing. But I don't believe him. If it was nothing then why was he even there?? I told him to go back to his date. He leaves but comes back like 15 minutes later and says he wants to talk again. We talk and he keeps saying it doesn't mean shit, but he's STILL on a date with another girl. Not wasting anytime. Not skipping a beat. And on top of that she works with me. I'm embarrassed. I'm hurt like a muthafucka. I can't stop crying. I don't even know what to do ...