Let's Play Ketchup

Guess who's bizzackk!! What's up?!?! Man, I know, I know, I've really fallen off of the blog wagon here lately. So much has happened between the last post that I wrote and this one I really don't know to start. My life is starting to take such a change and I'm really just thanking GOD. I guess I'll just divide it up into sections and just put out as much as I can.

School:

For the past year and some change I haven't been in school at all. I'm not gonna lie ... I had every excuse for why I hadn't enrolled. I didn't have the funds <- which is true. I didn't want to take out a loan. <- which is also true. I didn't know what I really REALLY wanted to do. <- that's changed. I had an idea of what I wanted to do with my life, but I wasn't sure how it was something I could do for the rest of my working days. I was scared to pick a career. All I knew was that I wanted to be in a field where I would always have a job and I could make a decent amount of money. I'm proud to announce that I have decided to go to nursing school to be a traveling nurse. I start back in January of 2011. I'm excited. It's like I have a new lease on school.

Moving Out:

One of the main things that I've been talking about since I started this blog was moving out. The hardest part about moving out is actually MOVING OUT. The fear of the unknown and being lonely has been what has kept me from really pursuing this dream. Not knowing if I can stand on my own and do what it takes to run a house has been something that held me back. Lately, I've really been trying to get my ish together. I'm 24 years old. If there was ever a time to move out it's now. I've found furniture and even went as far as to put it on layaway. I've been getting my credit together and I've been saving my pennies. This is something that is going to happen by my birthday next year.

Love:

Ever since I can remember I always had this fascination with love. I wanted to be in love. I was looking for love ((in all the wrong places)). Truth be told I was more in love with the idea of being in what I thought love was than appreciating the love that I have. See books and movies can give you a false sense of what love really is. I'm still in a relationship with ::Christian:: and I'm not gonna lie it has been a learning experience for the both of us. We grown though. It's not perfect by any means, but I'm happy.

The Homies:

I'm a God Mama!! I only have two friends up here and both of them have had sons ((within a week of each other)). Having God sons has really changed my perspective on kids. I love them but I realized just how unready I am to have some of my own. I don't have much of a social life anymore, because my friends are down for the count right now. I think I'm gonna join a sorority or something so that I can get involved in the community and meet some new people.

I guess I'll stop here. I'm really gonna try to post something once a week.