It's ME

I haven't been out in the social scene in a long time, but even when I used to go I noticed that none of the guys that ever came up to the table where my home-girls and I were at ever talked to me. They never acknowledged me. EVER. I still had fun, because I was with the girls, but they normally got all of the attention. I don't know why it didn't bother me then, but now that I think back on it ... it saddens me.

I went out by myself for the first time tonight and it was just a total bust. I didn't meet one new person. I'm not even talking about getting any numbers. I talking about just meeting someone with whom I could possibly hang with. It just didn't happen. I didn't even get looked at. Okay they had to look at me to know not to sit with me or speak to me BUT I didn't get a single double take. I NEVER do.

I am the ugly friend that I hear so many jokes about in the comdey clubs. I'm the one that gets stick holding everybody's purse at the club. I'm the one that will probably end up having to baby sit everybody's kids that they can go out on dates with attractive men. I'm the one who always has to listen to the girls cry about how their men treat them, because I NEVER have a man to make preoccupied so that I don't have time to take their calls.

That's why I can't find guys that want to do more than sleep with me and leave me. They take me out on weekdays, because I'm not attractive enough to be seen with on the weekends. I'm ugly. It's time that I face the truth.