In Transition ...

I'm sick and tired of the same ole', same ole'. My life has become so repeditive that I could go through my entire day with my eyes closed and function as though my eyes were wide open. I need some exictment. I need a change. I'm craving newness, but I don't know how to go about acquiring it. How do you break the cycle that you're in? I know that the obivious answer would be 'Just do something new'. That's easier said than done.

I got to just be honest with myself ... The problem is me. I don't have my ish together. I sway back and forth like tree limbs in the wind. I have no discipline. No structure. I'm trying to bulid a mansion on quicksand. It's a hard thing to admit, but I think that admitting to myself that I am the cause of my grief is the first step to being happy ((not finding a new job like I stated in a earlier post)).

For so long, I have played the role of a victim making everything and everyone the source of my hardships. But that was not nor will ever be the case. I have control over my life. I determine what happens to me. I know what your thinking. "It's not true ::Beautiful:: GOD has the final say," and that's true. BUT even then his actions are predicated off of my actions. They say it all the time. If you make one step ... GOD will make two. In even in that, my actions give way to what HE will do for me if I step out on faith and believe in HIM.

I know that is the case for every aspect of my life. From my relationship with my family ((specifically my daddy)), my health ((losing weight)), my finances ((paying off my debt and being able to actually save some money)), my education ((paying for school and even just choosing the right major)), my love life ((being with the man that HE has for me)), and even with my friends, I know that if I just submit FULLY to GOD and allow him to lead me everything else will fall into place. It has to, because where GOD is there is no confusion ... only peace and blessings.