If You're Ready ... I'm Ready

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"Are you ready to be in a relationship with me?" ::Ty:: asked me that this morning. I met ::Tyler:: about three weeks ago. He's not the guy that I would typically talk to. He's nothing like the guy that I said I wanted ((just going off of outward appearances)), but our chemistry is crazy. He's not ugly, he's just not the usual bright like a light, tall, no kids having dude that normally catches my eye. <- We all see where they are right now. One word ... GONE. When I met him, I didn't think that we would have stayed in touch this long. ((I know what y'all are thinking and three weeks isn't a long time. You'd be right, unless you weren't planning on talking to a person for more than a weekend.)) I met ::Tyler:: when I went to the Homecoming Celebration for the local university where I grew up. That's why I didn't think that we would work out. He lives there. But he has been determined. He calls me every single day. At least twice a day, just to check on me. He seems like he really wants to have something with me.

He's kinda older, and to be honest, I know that he's ready to find that one and get married. <-There's nothing wrong with that. In fact, all of my young adult life, I've been hoping meet somebody like ::Tyler::. It's like he knows me. I don't even have to say much, because we are so much on the same page. I feel him. I understand where he comes from and he understands where I come from.

There are only two problems. One ... I'm scared. I've said I wanted somebody that wants what I want. I even prayed to find somebody like him. Now I have him. I'm afraid that I'll do something to mess it up before it even gets started good. Two ... I lied to him. I know that might not seem like a big deal, but if we were to really have a future, it would be based off of a lie ... partially. I told ::Tyler:: that I only had one more year of school left, and he has been basing a lot of things off of me being done around this time in '09. I know that I'm not too far in to tell him the truth, but I'm scared. What will he think of me when he finds out. Like I said I told him that because I didn't expect him to be around as long as he has been. But the more time the passes by the harder it will be to come clean. He deserves the truth. Is it really that big of a deal?? When I get out of school, might not even matter that much to him.

::Tyler:: told me that he has a good feeling about us, and as much I don't want to admit it ... I do too. I kinda like this guy. I'm just trying to take it extra slow. We'll see what happens.