Shoulda', Coulda', but DIDN'T

Man!!! I could have sworn yesterday was Friday ... I look up and here it is almost TUESDAY again!! Where in the hell did the weekend go? The weeks are starting to roll around too quickly for me these days. I seriously need to get out and starting living life again. I'm spending way too much of my time in the house watching the world pass me by. I'm too young for the Granny lifestyle that I've been living lately. Leaving the house only to go to work and church. This has got to change!!

So, I've made a resolution <-- I know that it's past New Year's, but who said that that was the only time a girl could make a commitment to change her life. I'm going to go SOMEWHERE and do SOMETHING at least once a week. I don't care if I have to go by myself. I've got to start getting out there and mingling. How else will anybody get to know me?

Let's not mistake it, I have a little circle of friends, ((When I say little I mean a group consisting of three.)) but they all have men in their lives, so that keeps them on constantly unavailable mode. If they do want to go out I usually end up being the "don't I look like a lame", tag along. Not to be a hater, but I don't want to sit and watch them cuddle and snuggle up, while I'm sitting there cold as hell with nobody to keep me warm. It's just not a good look. Back to the subject at hand.

The crazy thing about this weekend was that I had somewhere to go, but I for some unforeseen reason I chose to stay at home. The sad part is that I can feel myself becoming anti-social. I've been in this shell so long that I was probably, in my subconscious mind, too afraid to go be in large groups again. Real talk, I had no reason not to be in attendance this past Saturday. I was just MIA, and when people came to me to give me a good helping of the you should have been there's and the we had such a great time's ... I found myself feeling very stupid, because I SHOULD have been there, but all I can do is learn from this mistake, and correct it in the near future. Because like I said, this week all that staying at home changes. Pray for me y'all, because I have no clue where I'm headed. I just hope that it will be more enjoyable than disappointing.